Million Dollar Answer

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Daily Prompt:
Million-Dollar Question
by michelle w. on April 16, 2013

Why do you blog?

I have just returned from spending some time away from the rural idyll I call home.I was in the Big Smoke.London Town.They don’t call it that any more but there you go.London Town it is to me.Being away and having to make an enormous effort to get online I did not bother, except for a few fumbles with the mobile. I can do a basic blog from that device but I can’t link things easily or swiftly enough for my liking and I find the whole thing frustrating. Picture blogs with bits of text, no bother. But writing on a device that is smaller than my own hand.No.Not going to work. Not for this budding wordsmith anyhow.There is a ghost of a memory of a typewriter about the key board with my pc that makes me think I am actually writing…you know…writing.

I wonder if anyone has designed a typewriter keyboard that feels and sounds like a type writer used to but loads it onto the pc screen directly? Maybe I should use a typewriter. Anyway I know I need to be sat in a chair with a keyboard in front of me or a pen and a pad. I digress. My lack of blogging this few days past has thrown up the very same question that the Daily prompt has issued today. In that time I have written little and I have read little too, so why after all, do I blog?

I wasn’t going to write for DP anymore because I have been sensing a growing voice that wants to speak for itself rather than be prompted. The training wheels are off or so I thought. Then as if by some twist of fate DP brings it’s thinking into alignment with my own or mine falls into step with it. Doesn’t matter. It’s inescapable. I have to answer the DP and escape it simultaneously. If I could not find an answer to that question I would honestly walk away now. Close my WordPress writer’s account and stop. I’d keep the Photography Blog because it has legs and I have more belief in my work there than I currently do as a writer.

As a writer.

Just seeing those words in print in front of me on the screen and knowing that they have existed, if only for a second, (I considered deletion as soon as they appeared), does stir something in me.

As a writer.

I like the idea that I have a voice. I am not sure what it wants to say and I believe that dropping out from DP will allow me the space to discover it. It will also remove most of my readership, which comes via ping backs. That in itself is not an issue. I am writing now but I don’t know why. This feels like an excavation. A journey. To find my voice perhaps.To chip away at the blank alabaster page until form presents itself. Perhaps there is a need to be heard, a desire to be seen as having a voice, even if only one person can recognise that. One reader is enough. Ultimately I believe I have a story to tell. I have no plot. No characters. No narrative. No idea.

That lack of knowledge or direction has never stopped me in the past from trying something new.
I am a risk taker. I will write simply because right at this moment in time I have that desire.

Yesterday I watched a French film by François Ozon called A la Maison/In the House. I enjoyed it thoroughly. It made me think. It made me feel. It was beautifully written and well acted.
Beautifully written. As the central storyline is about writing I was entranced from the beginning. Writers I have never heard of were mentioned, for example,  Flaubert and I was immediately aware of my lack of credentials as a writer in respect of what I have read. The student in the story is given mountains of material to read from Dickens to Dostoyevsky.

I have read neither of these writers either.Must one read to write? Must one dance to drum? Must one study music to play an instrument.I believe not. I believe that a unique voice must come from deep within and be unsullied by other influences. Should I go therefore and live in a cave in order to compose my works? Not read anything? Of course not.

Everything I have lived through is a ripple on the pond that is my life.
I can read anyone’s work.I can be influenced by it. Amazed by it.
I can learn to read music to broaden my understanding and to help me discover what it is I can let go off.
I can dance to help me hear the connection with the drum and still want to drum more than I want to dance.
I can do all of those things and still find my voice.

This I believe.

I have worked with classically trained musicians who find improvisation difficult when I can play freely but they can sight read music whilst all I see is Scribbles ;) Maybe I cannot say anything new, and maybe others will compare me to this person or that person but in the end, the answer to the question Why do I blog? is quite simple. I want to find my voice. I will find my voice. This will be my last Daily Prompt response, at least for the time being, and my upcoming work schedule will also mean daily posts are unlikely. I have no sense of where I will go with this leap into the unknown but I will go there anyway. I hope some of you will come along for the ride.ps…just in case you are not a clicker of links, here’s a picture to warm the cockles of any budding writer’s heart ;)

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32 thoughts on “Million Dollar Answer

  1. VeeKay

    Oddly enough, my first response to the PROMPT today was to question my motives for rushing to the supreme muse daily… to such a point in fact that I considered packing it in :) This one could back-fire on wordpress!

    • paulscribbles

      I doubt it will backfire on them but it may encourage people to write more for themselves. I wonder wether or not DP is designed to hold people for a month or two and then shove them out into the wide open blogasphere. Thanks for dropping by.

  2. I find those little devices inelegant, ineffective, and a darn pain. And I do not like them sam i am. perhaps it is the same reason i avoid the dp. i do not like carrots on a thread put there for me to chase, even if at times they seem rather clever. on another chain of thought, while a daily post can be a good regimine, so to can be time away to reflect and assimilate. enjoy the time paul !

  3. Although I have an iPhone, iPad I only use them for looking at and checking stuff. I might write a quick SMS, but blogging on one is a bit ridiculous. I write a lot (talk a lot as well) and my fingers are not designed for it. One of the reasons I have no interest in Windows 8, I want to type and not leave fingermarks on a screen.
    I did not actually grow up in the big smoke, but in the big smog. At least smoke disappears, but you had to cut chunks out of the smog to move through it.
    I read a lot because I like reading (so does my other half, so we can discuss the books we read). Blogging and writing is for me fun. Prefer it to knitting in any case. So please carry on blogging, I always make a point of calling in on your page when you blog.
    By the way I learnt to type on one of those machines with no electric current, and can still do it, although I do prefer electric. Learnt Pitmans as well, and still use it today.

    • paulscribbles

      I am very much going to carry on blogging, visiting my regular haunts, which includes a drop in at your blog, and hopefully developing this into something with a little more direction. For now I just enjoy sitting and penning stuff.

  4. “As a writer.

    Just seeing those words in print in front of me on the screen and knowing that they have existed,
    if only for a second, (I considered deletion as soon as they appeared), does stir something in me.”
    This was so refreshing to read! I do, in fact, WRITE but I hold such huge admiration and respect for WRITERS that I wouldn’t see fit to call myself that… I also paint, but I have trouble calling myself an ARTIST… Feeling inspired to delve into these self-imposed limitations or prohibitions… I do wish you soon find your voice, though from reading this post I can hear a very clear and loud voice already…best of luck, Alexandra

    • paulscribbles

      Thank You Alexandra for your encouraging words. As a musician and photographer I have overcome the thought that I am not an artist, though I do understand where you are coming from with that. I wish you luck with your delving and I look forward to reading/seeing the results.

      • paulscribbles

        No worries. I visited your blog last night. It’s like a work of Art in itself. So much going on there. So many levels. I think you hoodwinked me slightly. It appears you are a Blog Master ;)

      • Oh my, I had to look up the word hoodwinked, had never heard/read it before… Paul, I’m sorry if I made you feel deceived… thank you for appreciating my blogging efforts and, well, maybe I underestimate what I have achieved with my blog, I have no idea, I do strive to have a bit of all I like… wow, a Blog Master, you are not hoodwinking me, right?! jejejeee did i use the “new” word correctly? read you soon!!!

      • paulscribbles

        Maybe hoodwinked was too strong…I get that it came from a place of humility but I do think you have an amazing blog.

  5. Loved your take on that prompt and I am glad that you took the time to answer it. Your article was an inspiration to all to keep the drive to write going. Thank you and ironically thank you for the ping back.

  6. I bought an actual typewriter at a Flea Market last weekend because I missed the sounds and motion (and it was only $5.00) The question is …….can you still get ribbons? Good luck getting back on track Paul.

    • paulscribbles

      Don’t know about Ribbons but you can get one of those gizmos and attach it to your pc.
      I have a very demanding work schedule right now so blogging will have to fit around that. I was lucky in the last two weeks to have lots of time to write and I am aware of a personal propensity for starting well and not finishing certain projects. I really hope this is not one of them as I am very much at home with WordPress and this community.

  7. Paul we are on the same page. I have been saying for almost a week now that I am done with the DP.

    Do I like seeing the “numbers” increase every day? Yes. I like seeing 1 become 2 and then the steady 3 regular readers. My need to keep my three readers interest going and satisfied is an addiction.

    We are on the same page as my life is going to change again tomorrow. (Hint: I finally got a job!) So I too will struggle to post and struggle to sustain the unsustainable… or so I have been criticized…

    I will follow your voice. Wherever it leads. It may feel like the canary at times but an eagle will emerge. I want to witness that.

    Thank you kind sir. Thank you.

    • paulscribbles

      Great news. The job that is, not the less frequent blogs ;)
      I really appreciate your support and I will continue to look for your words as they fall gently on me like a summer rain.
      Enjoy the world of work it may provide you with more than just employment.

  8. I still have my first typewriter, the “E” key hasn’t worked in 20 years but still I keep it. I loved this response to the prompt and I think it answers the question beautifully for many of us. I’ll still be following along on your writing journey without the prompts, write on Paul! :)

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