it took a while
searching among the debris
always finding nothing
there was of course a lot of it
debris that is
accumulated piles of everything bad
in that dark place
there must be something here
something
time after time i came up empty handed
nothing there
it’s as if the pile of dark matter was laughing at me
don’t waste your time
this is who you are
nothing
i behaved as if it were true sometimes
most times
i believed it
others did not
they told me they could see something
but when i looked i could not find that thing
i looked and i looked
for years
i never gave up
and one day i found it
a tiny little ember
hidden in the debris
soft warm glowing thing
i picked it up and it glowed a little more
i cocooned it in my palms and felt its warmth spread across my being
this tiny little ember
this hope
this small joy
this core part of me
no longer lost
no longer someone else’s perception
i could feel it
see it
touch it
this tiny little ember
here in the garden of the debris of me
this tiny little ember has begun to glow
and to grow
layer by layer
i let in the love
my love
like making an onion
from the inside out
heart open
gratitude flowing through my veins
i am blessed with this discovery
this tiny little ember
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Beautiful! Keep nurturing and fanning that ember. Believe in yourself and take great care of yourself. From one ember to another, MW
Oh I’m all about taking care of me now…embers growing and glowing. Thanks for the lovely message.
I’m happy to hear that. Glow onwards and upwards! You might like my little hideaway blog, Silver Moon Cove. It’s linked in my main blog menu bar.
Thanks. I’ll check it out.